Tuesday, August 12, 2008

A Clean, Well-lighted Place

I love my new place. There is nothing fancy or remarkable about it, but it is quiet and private and close to work. Yesterday evening I walked four blocks to Winco and bought groceries. I bought two pounds of fresh blueberries for 3.98, bananas, nectarines, kiwi fruit, broccoli, carrots, and tomatoes, a nice deli sandwich, two baked chicken breasts from the deli, a quart of chocolate milk, a box of Kix, a box of Dreyer's lime bars, and laundry soap, Purex liquid, 32 loads with all-fabric bleach for 2.98. A lot of things at Winco end in .98 or .68. It's a bargain hunter's paradise.

My three roommates are all mellow working guys. Padrick works maintenance for McMenamin's Pub at Kennedy School, Doug is a truck tire installer for Superior tires. He handles the fleet at my work. Portland is really a small town with big town aspirations. Rick used to work for Comcast and he has an interview with Aetna tomorrow. He's stayed busy this summer remodeling the house, installing egress windows for the basement and french doors leading out to the patio.

It's comfortable here. The house is tidy and drama free, quiet and pleasant. I can bike to work in a half hour and drive in fifteen minutes. We have wireless internet, a nice yard and a storage shed for the bikes. 106th is a quiet dead end street. There's a group of boys who play sports on the street most of the day, neighborhood kids from the surrounding houses, ranging in age from 10 to 14. Nice kids, about the age of Richard's son Ryan. I pulled out the lime bars when I got back and shared them with the boys. They all said thank you and the father of two of the boys smiled from the driveway and said hello. It's just a mile and a half to the gym and just blocks to the Pig N' Pancake or Changs, six blocks to the light rail station and ten minutes to Target or the movie theater. There are several quiet neighborhood spots I could go to watch a Duck game and have a beer and it's 4 miles to my favorite pizza by the slice joint, American Dream at 48th and Glisan. A good Saturday afternoon bike ride for a slice of heaven.

My room is spacious; it has hardwood floors and I laid down the rug Steff gave me and set up the reading and thinking chair in one corner. There's room for an ottoman, a lamp and lamp table and a bookcase, the garage sale purchases I'll fund with my next poker jackpot. I played like a stone idiot earlier this evening though--I lost 1200 chips with a pair of pocket queens. The guy hit a monster draw; I never saw it coming. It takes the air of you for a minute, walking into a trap like that. Texas Hold 'em can be a treacherous game, a hard way to make a dishonest second income. But it beats having people snarl at me over spilled trash. Geez Lawheez, they get upset. And they make it SO personal. But every two hours I get to get up and take the headset off and have a delicious snack, and at end of the week they give me money. I remember the scene in "Big" when Tom Hanks gets his first paycheck. He stands up and starts shouting out the amount, he's so excited to have real money of his own. Grownups forget how cool that is, having money. Remember how he decorated his apartment, the loft with the nerf basketball hoop and the pop machine and bunk beds? The girl comes over and he says, "Sleep over? Okay, but I get to be on top." That really is a tender, funny, heartwarming movie. If I ever fall in love again or win my wife back I'm going to microwave a big bowl of popcorn and watch movies on the sofa on a winter afternoon, cuddled up under a blanket. We'll start with that one and then "The Princess Bride", one of the most enduring and original and deeply entertaining movies I've ever seen.

Hemingway said all a writer needed was a clean, well-insulated, built-in, shockproof crap detector, and a clean, well-lighted place. $375 a month it costs me to stay here, plus utilities. Richard bought Papa Aldos just now; he stopped by my window and invited me to share. I'm grateful to have a place to lay my head. The Son of Man had no such luxury.

2 comments:

Gretchen said...

Before you go garage sale shopping come to my house first. I have a couple of pieces I will loan you but who knows I am never want them back. Right now they are just in the way in my house or my garage.

Dale Bliss said...

Gretchen--

Thanks for the offer. I like finding stuff and creating something out of nothing. Having you lend me something wouldn't be the same.

This is the Way the Transformation Begins


"Some men see things as they are and say why? I dream things that never were and say "Why not?"
George Bernard Shaw, Robert F. Kennedy


This is the way the transformation begins.
It begins in me.
It begins now.
It begins with small incremental changes and shifts in attitude
it begins with positive action
failing forward
and suddenly I start looking at the world and my place in it in a new way. I speak differently and dress differently and project a different energy, and the world opens up like a glorious pink azalea bush, eight feet tall and blooming like mad.


photo by Kajo123 from the website flickr.com

Good morning!

An engineer builds a bridge and every bolt and weld has to be exactly right; every measure has to be perfect, or the bridge collapses or fails to take its place. Fantastically detailed blueprints have to be laid out. Impact statements have to be filed, sediment has to be studied, years of effort, months of planning, and a man-made marvel rises in the sky. Park somewhere and take a good look at a bridge, and think of all the skill and knowledge and hard honest work it took to create it. Consider how a few thousand years ago we were living in caves.

It is not so with a dream. Some people are remarkable dreamers and dreams spring whole from them, or they can leap up from bed and pages of creative genius flow out of their pen, intricate and perfect. Most of us though are baby dreamers, new at it and tentative to the trust the power of what we wish for.

Start the dream! Whether you want to go to nursing school or college or learn to play the guitar, take a first step, now, even in the wrong direction. Don't wait for the blueprint to come to you, the environmental impact statement, the permits and the 200-page budget and legislative dream approval. Rough it out, sketch it on a napkin, tell a friend, and take action. Your dream begins the moment you step out in first moment of believing, and the result can touch a thousand souls. Listen to Jim Valvano: never give up, never surrender. Believe in the audacity of action and your fantastic potential for change and new opportunity.

The Hawthorne Bridge at sunrise, Portland Oregon. Photo by Joe Collver, from flickr.com
Genuine happiness and success start with an attitude of abundance

Make it a daily practice to begin your day with five minutes of thankfulness. You can even do it in your car on the way to work. Do it in your own way, whether it's thoughtful reflection or a prayer or singing out loud, but focus on your rich, amazing, abundant life.

Feeling grumpy or resentful or worried instead of thankful? Change direction! Consider the incredible gifts you have--mind, body, spirit, senses, your family, your friends, your clothes, your car, and the breakfast you enjoyed this morning. By the standards of 99% of the world, Americans are incredibly, amazingly rich. You truly have no idea how richly blessed you are until you start thinking about it. Even the heart that beats within you and the lungs that breathe your air are an intricate and amazing miracle.

Some of my favorite movies are ones that feature a once-defeated character waking up to an absolutely new day: "It's A Wonderful Life," the various versions of Dicken's "Christmas Carol" and "Groundhog Day." How exhilarating it is for George Bailey to wake up and realize his life isn't over, it's just beginning, and that today truly is a brand new day.


"It's a Wonderful Life"

"It's a Wonderful Life"
George returns home to everything he ever wanted.